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last entry 18 weeks ago

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 15:31:05 GMT

18 weeks ago. 4 months plus. i dun even think i have put those months into words. ever since exams over i have been spending alot of time recuperating from the stress. which also means i've been slacking all these while. when a person has too much time for herself she becomes paranoid. she looks at things very negatively. time also allow her to put things and issues into perspective. but i think i spent too much time thinking negatively.

gift ideas?

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 07:40:23 GMT

maybe some of you are already thinking or have even bought something. just wanna blog this in so that you wun buy the same thing. i received the same presents before. =D

polaroid camera - baby
necklace - aunt
bracelet - mum n dad
something that i will use everyday - jane

if u are thinking of getting 925 silver pls dun! cuz im allergic to it. and no more softies please.... my bed cant fit anymore. =)

love you all and see u this saturday.

my 21st birthday party.

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 15:33:13 GMT

Venue: Evergreen Park* Function Room
Date : 21st March 2009, Saturday

Time: 6pm – 10pm *cake cutting at 8pm

*Hougang Ave 7, near holy innocent sec.sch.

Bus no. 74, 147 & 112 (from hougang or kovan MRT).

Red Star - Bus stops nearest to my place.
http://www.streetdirectory.com/asia_travel/travel/travel_id_2604/travel_site_89006/

Nearest expressway exit - CTE AMK Ave 3, head towards upp serangoon road and turn towards Hougang Ave 5/7.

Bus Interchange
Hougang Interchange - 112 (4th or 5th Bus stop)
Kovan Station - 112 towards hougang interchange (6th or 7th bus stop)

Bus services
If you are taking 74 and 147 drop off after Punggol Park Bus Stop and approx 5 minutes walk.

if you are coming from other places and need directions please call me. =)

Dear friends,

please RSVP by 11th march 2009.

Thank you!

Loves, Jin Feng

visiting

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 06:45:02 GMT

i feel like im on holiday. really. been out shopping most of the days or lazing at home watching tv. nothing near to studying other than attending lectures. ppl kept asking if im having school holiday and im like no. deep down i think i am having my own break. been bringing my aunt from london round the town for shopping and my cousins went for the kumar show. more cousins are heading home next week so will be busy busy busy again. need to steal some time off to study though.

ahhh. i wanna sleep again.

good to go

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 06:58:01 GMT

thanks mel! =) i think i have rest enough and re-energised to move on with life. im kinda excited that my cousins are coming back from london and australia. kinda cuz im not really ready to party and leave what i need to do. i'll just tell myself to take one step and a time. =D

im such a fool

Mon, 17 Nov 2008 07:57:42 GMT

my mood swings just getting in me. after thinking through wad happen last week and all the happenings. i just feel like im sucha fool. time of the year to have alot of TO DOS. and none is achieved. christmas is round the corner. most celebrated festive in the world i guess. i personally dun like it coming. dunno why. probably haunted by my younger days. nonetheless, i have great memories too. maybe i will spend this year with some special friends in life. =D

actually no. cuz this year christmas we will be celebrating edwin's 21st and my aunt and cousin will be in town so that means super duper busy month ahead. keeping in mind i have 3 test coming and on going lectures.

thank you baby. i love you!

gave in an inch; you went for a mile

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 06:26:03 GMT

i think it just pms getting on me or just the assignments and school stuffs? i've been always positive about weekends and what we've always been doing. i praise myself for being such a nice girlfriend and you re-assured me. sometimes like that day. i'll get really tired. just tired.

give me a day or two to 'rest' and i'll be ok. i regret not talking to you as much cuz i wanna talk to u now.

16th October 2008, 10:05pm

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 09:08:20 GMT

Mood : loved
Music : noise from TV
Drink : Camomile with Honey
Health : cough and sore throat
Place : my bed =)

16102002 - Present
Clarence and Jin Feng

this is taken during our 4th year anniversary in the cable car to sentosa. this pic should be the most dated among the rest. definitely it does explain our feelings now i think. i fear for this day to come because this is the first time we are spending it on our own. i fear loneliness. i fear not having you with me. im just being silly.

i used to be really excited about the actual day anniversary. not this time. cuz i know i'll be alone for sure. i woke up on monday tearing. i dunno why. its so strange. i never had the feeling for the longest time. the last time i had the same feeling was when i needed to go jc for first 3 months. den i sat up and sort out my thoughts. i told myself that my baby is still here. he still loves me. doesnt really matter if we're not celebrating it together. den i attribute this feeling to weekends. cuz we always spend so much time during the weekends. on mondays i will feel the sense of lost because you're not by my side.

im so used to waking up at 6am everyday to hear your voice over the phone. it gave me a sense of security. and most importantly it makes my day. hearing your voice means a start of a brand new day for me and a day closer to seeing you. an sms from you will make my heart hop like a kangaroo. really.

given a chance to turn back 6 years. at 10:05pm. i would have made the same decision to fall so madly in love with you.

i told myself that there's nothing to fear and nothing to be upset about because of all the things you've done for me. your effort and your unselfish thoughts. instead of being sad i should be feeling really thankful. though you din succeed in the end but just knowing that gave me so much warmth and comfort.

recently you wrote a letter to me and this is what you said 'i know you sacrificed so much....' made me cry uncontrollably.

sometimes i feel so useless and stupid. i just cant find other words to sms you other than I love you and i miss you. i hate myself from repeating it in almost all the messages that i sent you. i realise maybe the key reason is i cant think of other ways to express myself.

thank you for saying that im pretty and loving me. beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. i truly understand what this means. there was once when your god ma said that i've grown fatter (which is true anyway). i remembered clearly how you defended me infront of her. the feeling is priceless and words cant describe.

you gave me the strength to forget my weaknesses and focus on my strength and what i can do for you. planned a little surprise and hope you like it. we've been talking about marriage recently. and you know my answer to you. im so glad that we both have the same thinking. i dunno if 1,2,3,5 or 10 years later we'll be together. i just know that i want to be with you now cuz i love you. if we ever get married. we'll lead the greatest marriage.

finally, if our 6 years of relationship were to be written into a book. it wun be a fairytale or inspirational story. it'll be the biggest hit romance biography ever.

ps: thank you jane for you well wishes!

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 06:19:34 GMT

thanks to people around me. i have some suggestions.

1) dun celebrate at all [near to this if nothing good is out]
2) singapore flyer [hmmm. would rather go when IR is up. =D but i dun mind. LOL]
3) nice dinner [suggested by me cuz there seems to be the best thing..]
4) sentosa to get some moment back for 4 year anni. [so fat how to wear bikini?]
5) bird park [bibi has never been there before. the awww so cute penguins. yes yes! but too far off civilisation.]

bottom line - we want to celebrate it no matter how and what we do. but definitely do something. seriously i dun mind doing anything as long as we're doing it together.

one of the reason why i love u is cuz you're so sweet to me. u actually wanted to get leave on our actual day to surprise me. though its not possible but i think just by knowing this is the best present ever!

our anniversary present =D

where have i gone?

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 04:23:52 GMT

these weeks have been really been busy cuz my bibi had two weeks of leave. and these two weeks have very much been meeting sec sch friends and doing his stuffs with him. so much of activities that i think my health is taking the toll. im still not well now but recovering.

i enjoyed simply spending time with him and his friends/ our friends. and here comes sunday for next book in. it's always so difficult. we concluded the "hate sundays" feeling. esp when we were younger. like sunday means monday tml and we have to go to school and hand in some annoying assignments and i will always miss some TV programs at primetime doing homework or COPYing for most. heee.

todays monday and tml is TUESDAY. exceptionally happy this coming one cuz bibi's booking out in afternoon. public holiday makes the week shorter. much shorter.

school's been cool cuz all my lessons are kicking in already. means alot more busier. saturday classes still sucks. really do. and 830 made it worst. oh wells. its econs so maybe not that bad afterall. and cuz of that my saturdays are usually moody cuz i have to bear the rest of the day like a zombie. i need my...10 - 12 hours of sleep. yess. my lack of sleep on weekends flow over to weekdays. trust me. i can sleep for a LONG LONG time. hee

our 6th year anniversary is on the way. less than a month. thinking of how i want to do it and what gifts should i get. like ANY IDEAS PPL? hahahaha. seriously at this point of time im so so blank cuz there's like nothing that he really needs for army and anything else i cant afford. so yeah im just out of ideas. yeah.

good news to cheer for. my thyroid level is reduced to 10 and im taking lesser pills. hope that i can get out of the situation SOON. hopefully end of this year. =)

i love you and miss you loads!

i miss...

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 02:17:10 GMT

i miss my baby...
i miss having breakfast with baby...
i miss having chomp chomp...
i miss wearing uniforms...
i miss hanging out with nikk, germs, timo, joyce, thoma and all...
i miss hanging out with my dearest sisters jo and jane... (almost forgetting to wish her happy birthday)
i miss going to town like i always do last time...
i miss watching canto drama every night...
i miss feeling cash rich...
i miss my bed now...

just another list of i miss. i wanna turn it into i had. =D

in school now doing readings for my modules. i think its helping. i wun go to another class and feel lost. =D im loving life.

i miss u baby.

silly moments

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 10:41:11 GMT

my boy misses his hair so much that he actually styled one of the toys we saw, kinda look like his hair though. =D

timbre

Mon, 11 Aug 2008 10:36:38 GMT

spent national day at timbre. nice place to chill and hang out but the price to pay for not reserving is 1 hour of waiting. =D

cc, roslyn, liang bao, sean, lennon, jane, vern, me & myboy

time of the month

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 11:27:34 GMT

i dislike cramps very very much. been home sweet home and lying round the house literally. like on the sofa den the bed den the sofa again. despite bad cramps today. i had like 4 phone calls from my dearest bibi. it made my day better. still waiting for his calls. ok. back to rolling round the house.

why is it so difficult today

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 13:25:12 GMT

i find it so hard to part with bibi today. and i dunno why? is it the time of the year or just me? or just that he only had 24 hours with me?

dinner at chao chu kang park. yes we rushed over from pasir ris. for some halal zhi char. not too bad but parking there suckss. and so damn far away.

enjoyed sat night with roslyn, cc, liang bao, sean, lennon and ian @ timbre. nice place in the midst of city area and trees. hee. den supper at meng's kitchen for supper but i only had drinks. den bibi hang out at my place before drivinh home half asleep at 6am. i barely had 3 hours of sleep and force myself to wake up at 910 to meet him asap. had lunch with his family at ding tai fung deellliciousss xiao long bao that made me wanna have it again and again and again. slurpss.

my new toy; mini pop corn machine! heh. i'll try it out one day.

i love u and miss u lots already. 5 days till the next book out. $&#*%(@#*%!~%@#)%@$

its a girl thing.

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 14:02:17 GMT

met the girls on tuesday night got zhi char and like girlie talk. =D they had so much fun at my house. esp my tv, my toys and lightsticks. the lightsticks was suppose to be for me when i feel down. like i'll break ONE to brighten up my room. and they broke loads. so i think they're not in their best moods?? hahahahaha. and mel told me i can get it at beach road for like $6.50 is it? and the girl thing adjorn at 12am++. its really fun like catching up and like updates from everyone of us. KIMBERLY CHONG we still miss u.

wednesday was sch den grands place for nap and dinner. i cooked again. my spring onion egg is good ok. haha.

thurs is shopping with the girls again without rachel this time. and i bought my slippers from num. under huge influence from yc i got the slim brown ones. and she got it too. since both of us are getting. there's this promo that buy 3 get 1 free. being aunties we got the deal and mel had to buy the same one. so the other pair is for jessie. we figured that we'll then all have the same pair of slippers. wan ting has hers already.

oh and allow me to mention this. we were at cathay adidas and yc wanted to get a pair of shorts. the guy who help her actually went like: ' oh, how u know i wear M? you getting this for me right?'. the rest of us went silent for a good long 3 seconds and i guess there were like millions of crows flying pass. =X den we laughed.

my dear bibi is still in camp. i miss u bibi. let time fly now den stop tml. the mummy is good!

things to celebrate

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 13:20:58 GMT

something worth celebrating
- my very own nintendo DS.
- my p-plate will be off the car tml.
- i can call and msg bibi from mon to wed
- i fell in love with zen stone (mum's)

something not worth celebrating
- my exams are coming. mid aug.
- my dad's car in ICU for major servicing cuz a cab ~~kiss~~ smooch its butt, and the cab is un-hurt. not even scratches.
- bibi goin to field camp AGN on thurs to sat and only be out on sat night (hopefully)
- i dun have bibi to study out with me. and that really sucks.

i dun hate school neither exams i think i should be really thankful for this path. and i dun detest wad the gov is doing to my bibi cuz he's losing weight and getting healthy. but cough been his biggest problem since. this weekend was spent to the fullest cuz we met up with the guys. all botak. except for... myself and ian. and empty slots is filled with mario and friends from nds. really love the game and we'll have a lil competition. heee. had jap food for sat night dinner with his family and dim sum this morn with his agn. =D food food food = fat fat fat... now the reverse? like im fat and bibi is slim. NIGHTMARE LAHHH. will be spending my week catching up is possible! and revision. and grands place. yeah and i love life!

Sun, 20 Jul 2008 11:57:03 GMT

its been 3 weeks since i last posted. and been like weeks since i use my laptop. a thick layer of dust settled on my poor lil lappie. knowing myself i must be really motivated to blog. =)

my botak boy will be outfield next week. so no messages; no phone call; no contact. we're planning to gaze at the brightest star as though there's our reflection for each other.

im not complaining about outfield; in fact i think its like damn fun. ok for me at the very least. =D though i'll lost touch of my baby for 4 days he'll be out on friday.

my weekends has been very much about baby and army. heh. like on saturday he'll pick me up and head home. den i'll help do laundry cuz he brings home like smelly uniforms. =X den we'll slack and have lunch! and sometimes shopping at ikea and like toa payoh central cuz he doesnt like heading town. very much ok with me cuz i dun really like crowd on weekends. on sat nights he'll stay over at my place and we'll watch movies till 2 - 3am. the truman show and a night at the museum. we'll den take turns to fall asleep. =) yeah! either that or we'll catch movies with friends or k. we'll wake up like 10plus on sundays for breakfast and busy busy packing the rest of the day.

and yeap thats how i spent my weekends with my dearest.

im not in my best of moods recently. think that i have too much to handle emotionally. esp family is my weakest point. i cant tell u how much i love u clarence foo yun hao but definitely the best friend, best boyfriend, best lover, and best family member i had. i love u and miss you already. thank you.

happy 2104 days anniversary.

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 14:56:07 GMT

todays menu - ciabatta with tuna(which look like otah to gladys) and ham! yummy yummy. =) thanks chef YF. i think i have officially crown her that. and whats for tml i guess we'll be have meiji milk =))

baby is sleeping now. miss him miss him miss him.

some thought struck me yest on the bus to... toapayoh central. before he enlist i was so worried that we cant adapt to this type of lifestyle. since sec sch den poly we've NEVER been on different paths before. other than our cca back in sec sch and thats all. we enjoyed life together like an old couple.

this 5 years 8 mths +. we've never been doing different things at some where far. (not physically but mentally) i used to be very decisive with the help of baby but now i feel helpless. even like buying a tee and wonder if i will REALLY like it? at the end of the day i tell myself that i will get used to it.

in fact. i am proud of myself being so strong and HAVEN cried. some friends said they cried 3mths when her bf was in BMT and when he went OCS she cried another 3mths. =X

i love u recruit y.h.foo

life without u

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 14:28:49 GMT

my life been revolving around school, grands place and home. days i missed spending time with my grands is back. and of course i whip up some food for dinner. (with lotsa help from my grands) hur hur. i know they love me and they want to see me everyday. i miss them too. =) i love them in fact. wanna spend my time with them to the fullest to have NO regrets in the future. =))

i have to mention this. had sandwich made from love love yf today! =) haha. deeellliiiiccciousss. *slurps croissant, tuna, egg mayo and HAM!. wahhh

serviced baby's psp today and its $45.90. ouch.

i miss u and i spend everyday like friday. =)

best weekend

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 15:00:59 GMT

friday - pri sch buddy dinner/gossiping

sat - sec sch girlfriends bbq and tsk tsk.

sun - mahjong & supper with dearest poly mates (mh, yf & yc)

mon - public holiday

on the other note, my last day at work with lotsa camwhoring. =)

in his army days

Fri, 06 Jun 2008 14:25:57 GMT

receive phone calls and smses from my boy and is enough to keep me alive. i love you

so happy

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 18:06:04 GMT

happy anniversary darling.
4yrs and 10mth. =)))

i love u with all my heart, brains(if there's any left), lungs, liver, kidney.....

so much happened.

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 07:14:23 GMT

friends are like.
we accidentally met at island creamery and we cabbed down to funanIT together. shopped the whole afternoon and had dinner together. haaaah. perhaps the best of all was blujazz and payback! =P

suddenly all things went silent and no words was mentioned. the girl had to contain all the excitement and happYness inside her small little weak heart. and all went ignorant about the girl's silence. these while, she's thought how to hide her deep feelings away from ppl. not because she's shy, but she's scared. a word made her mad and sad. but then its all about forgive and forget. and she lives happYly ever after... we shall see.

do u pity her?
maybe she dun need any sympathy.

i got 5 exams. thanks.

contain-ment

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 01:32:15 GMT

containment
if there's ever such a word. i pretty guessed this would happen and it did. i hate quarrels. i really do.

im having 5 exams this sem. how i love it? perhaps i should have check how many exam papers i need to do before i choose the specialisation? hahaha im seeing so many ppl slacking like me. whats happening??? i hate this kinda feeling. maybe i SHOULD start studying now yeah? i've taken my very first step to print my notes. and next. i need to sqeeze some time to PACK my room. thanks...

the reason why i reacted so strongly to this problem its because i love u and nothing else matters. perhaps you dun really need to change anything. perhaps i can just change for u? i can. but it'll really hurt. you said it hurts u to see me hurt. im so scared that your friends will come back soon. den you'll be even more involve in the biz, the friends. then, wad should i do? im not complaining. im just so helpless.